06 July 2016

IWSG Insecure Post 1

In January of this year, I did a New Year's resolution type plan which is something I normally do on my birthday.  However, I'd been knocked for a loop and a half and entered a year of mourning, a tradition among my people.  I don't strictly observe it since my mother was a Christian or "church" as it's so often termed nowadays.  I haven't met anyone nowadays who strictly observes the mourning custom.  Involves some things that are nearly impossible now, what with having to go out in the world and earn a living.  


I have now reached nearly half of my word goal for the year: 498,998 of 1,200,000 words.  I have finally gotten my site "Niiganabiik's World" sorted out.  Now, I just have to get the store set up and my first books up.  I've got this big plan set out for what I hope to accomplish when the final books of my series are "out there for all the world to see" if they so choose.  

I finally swan dived less than gracefully, read "belly flopped," into the world of "author sites" and have a domain for my writer blog.  Am in the process of cleaning up the site and updating it.  For now, it's going to look like it always has, bloops and all.  

As I looked back over the past years of my life with my mother, I realize how much she supported me in my writing endeavors.  I'd always imagined her here to see the finished stories.  Well, she knows, or will know when the year is up.  Right now, I am grateful for all the writer friends I made over the years.  I haven't always been up on things so much this last year-spending a lot of time with family and touching base with offline friends.  

I guess the hardest thing to get used to was the change in my routine:  Mom is no longer sitting in her chair, giving me the beady eye when I don't write for a while.  She or I would make the first of three pots of coffee for the day and proceed from there.  

So, I guess this post is helping me face the success, or failure, of my life as a writer, without the support of my mother's belief that I could do anything I wanted, if I wanted it bad enough.  "There's no such word as 'can't!' printed across my favorite picture of her is something I'm thinking of posting on my wall where I can see it every day.

7 comments:

T. Powell Coltrin said...

Wow! That is a lot of words. Congrats. Our success should only be measured by our breaths, I think. Whatever else in life is the icing on the cake.

Teresa

Karen Walker said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your mom. It sounds like you were really close. To lose that kind of support is monumental.

Rachna Chhabria said...

Welcome to IWSG, Mildred. Its hard losing a parent. I lost my dad on 4th January this year and its been a very difficult time for me.

You have a huge writing goal for this year. Good luck with it.

Rachna Chhabria
Co-host IWSG
Rachna's Scriptorium

Joylene Nowell Butler said...

My mother passed over in 1999, and I still ache to hear her voice. So sorry for your loss, Mildred.

Pat Garcia said...

Do that. Take the sentence and post it on your wall where you can see it, if it encourages you. I believe you can become the writer you want to be because you already are, and your mother saw that.
All the best and keep writing. You can do it.
Shalom aleichem,
Patricia

Yolanda Renée said...

I am sorry for your loss.
I saw that you posted your answer to the question a bit early but it's still relevant. Any positive comment and sometimes even the negative response will spur us to write and that's the key. To keep on keeping on.
Your Mother would be proud!

dolorah said...

So sorry for your loss. It will be hard to get used to a new routine, but you seem to be ready for the challenge. I'm sure you will imagine her sitting in her chair, challenging you to carry on; perhaps even inspiring you.

Good luck with all the changes and adjustments.